Closed off from love
I didn't need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you're frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone's looking round
Thinking I'm going crazy
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleedingI keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothings greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I'm going crazy, maybe, maybe
But I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
And it's draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I'll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see
I don't care what they say
I'm in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don't know the truth
My heart's crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

me n my cousin at lunar












hi peeps!






been ages since i blogged. shall start from cny. well, same old visitings n all. went to his relative's place as well. anyway its always this 1 thing we love abt cny isn't it? red packets! haha. meantime, i got to know this person, who looks alot like kenny.



n comes valentine's day. the day some can't wait for while some dread for n wish this day never comes. for me it was jus another ordinary day. he wanted to meet up but i din return any of his calls nor smses. come to think of it i felt rather mean to him. he bought pressies for me, wanting to bring me out but i rejected him so hard. now i start to reminisce the things he did for me n how he treats me even though i know its impossible for us to get back again.




lotsa clubbing n drinking. lunar, dragonfly, mos, nana, bq, work. my time rotates around these places wit the new person i knew. been spending most of my time wit him these few weeks.




exams are nearing, i begin to feel panicky since i haven been studying, or i shld say i haven been very serious wit schwork this sem. so this period of time i spent was mugging in mac's or at home. but i have to admit i did not give my all for the preparation. thus, all the mugging din really pay off. kinda disappointed in myself for allowing all these shit to happen to me.




n subsequently holidays r here. which means results are soon to be out. really dread for this day to come. feeling like i'm taking a roller coaster ride that never ends. very contradicted n vexed regarding stuffs surrounding me. how i wish i know exactly wat i wan in life, n a direction to look ahead of. but i dun. n this person i spend a lot of time wit nowadays starts to make me lose directions of wat i felt was right. now i'm all confused n puzzled by all my doings again. can someone tell me if i made the right choice? i really dunno how long i can take all these anymore.

presentation day! omg. freaking scared i could shiver. haha. we were all panicking n rushing thru our "script" when lesson had begun. lol. n we rehearsed like umpteen times. n finally, its our group. i was 3rd to present, so i waited for lim bei n qq b4 me, which seems so damn fast. goodness. at last, my turn. went up to the platform, wondering if i did tremble. haha. i was like reading off the que card thats all. no expressions, no gestures, no nothing. i jus wan to get it over n done. so i jus blabbered on till that 2 mins is up. n thats it, presentation is finally finally over. yeah! lol.

aft sch, went to meet kim at bugis to 'cny hunt' again. wahaha. n again, within 2 hours this time, i grabbed several tops. its so damn cheap n pretty nice, so " bu mai dui bu qi zhi ji" u know. wahaha. while kim, only got 1 top cos she considered like so long before she finally bought it.

went to work straight aft the trip. n something pissed me off. dun think being the boss' fren gives u the privilege to order ppl ard. u dun pay each time u come but u still do the drinking. n u r not the one that pays me but orders me to do this n that. hello! who u think u r? ur jus 1 old fucking china woman who has no manners at all u get it? i hope u return to ur bloody china n never come back!

ok i shall stop cursing n swearing, for i believe in karma. =)

went cny shopping wit him at marina. within like 3-4 hours, we had ard 7 carriers. wahaha. but din manage to buy alot of tops though. aft that, went to shiqi's bday bbq at her aunt's place. kinda ulu. haha. was the last to reach again, as qq said. lol. started eating the moment i reached. played poker aft everything. mark was banker. at first he kept losing, but in the end he got it all back! not shiok. lol. so when the game ended i lost like 2 bucks? lol. bu hao wan de. n while we all were busy with poker, momo n sheila kept themselves busy wit vodka! these 2 kukus got high n sheila fell, once again. she was as red as ang ku kueh lor. omg. the whole place was filled wit their voices. anyways, the nite ended well. happy 19th bday, qq. haha.




from front: me, sheila, bday girl, momo
back: dunno who, kenneth, shaunie, ah long, mark.





last pic before we left.

din go to sch today. went to meet qq, cy, n elgin wit him for qq's bday. initially wanted to go club nana, the former momo. but turned out it became a thai live band club. haha. his fren who worked there actually bluffed him about the ambience there. lol. disappointment.





cabbed down to dbl o to check out their happenings but ended up, we din go in. guess where we went? back to club nana! haha. at least they played rnb on n off, the price was more than reasonable. so yup, played till nearing 5 n, hsh. =)

went to sch as usual, n something amazing happened in lec today. my lecturer fell n fainted!! wahaha. she was apparenty passing us some papers n then she tripped over something n fell. we thought she fell cos i cant properly from the back of lec. but aft awhile, wit a few ppl going up intending to help her up, she din. she was lying face down on the ground not moving, but still breathing. lol. we all went down to c wat happened n this is so amazing, her shoes flew far away from her, so she was lying there bare-footed, face down, n her hands covering her face. can u imagine this scenario? haha. then the management ppl came n dismissed us. haha. when we left, she was still there, motionless. haha. i actually tot she wanted some face after she fell so she decided to fake her faint. lol. i know im being mean but cant rule out this possiblilty ma. lol.

aft lec, went out n discussed abt our cb project. then 1 person criticized our work to the max. thanks for ur concern but u r so crude n so 'manner-less' i cant stand the sight of ur fucking arrogant face.

then went to momo's place at nite to do project wit lim bei, qq and sulin. haha. they took 3FREAKING HOURS to settle down n start n the project ok. i almost died there. n i was maria for the nite lor. cooked for all the CBs. n lim bei ate 2 packets! haha. he was freaking hungry he could eat zone up. WAHAHA. aft that, project, project n more projects.

slept at 7. 7 in the morn ok. haiz. n the bloody lim bei still dare to laugh at my dark circle. bloody hell. was awaken by that bloody lim bei, who lacks sleep n became bonkers. he practically tried to wake us up every hour. hahaha. woke up at 11plus when everyone else was still pig. finally got to dig everyone up n left momo's place at 2. lesson was at 2 n we left her place at 2. haha. pestered long to send us outside n finally went to sch. we were so poorthing. haha. had to eat in the cab. haha. reached lec n half the class mia-ed. sighs. aft lec, we still need to continue wit, project, project. n PROJECT. =(

sch, work, then went to jackson's bday at o point. i think he was alr high by the time i reached. haha. momo came awhile later. zing, jasmine, lynn, watermelon and jackson's frens were there too. haha. we shifted to 6am aft o point closed n jackson was dead drunk alr. aft a while, the poor boy was lying on the dirty floor along bq. haha. n his fren accompanied him outside. played guessing games wit them n kept losing to 1 of jackson's fren. lol. n of cos i was forfeited to drink. at the end of everything, i could only rem myself under my block alr. haha. n watermelon told me i fell n my nose bleed. n jackson's fren told me i burned his hand wit my cigarette. wahaha. i dun even rem that.

went to momo's home before heading down to zing's bday party @ barcode. saw a lot of familiar faces there. we drank quite alot n downed quite a few shots aft momo n qq disappeared to outside. went out n saw an argument, almost leading to a fight. n i saw lotsa peeps sitting by the road kurb, drunk. haha. n a few were puking too. lol. aft barcode closed, momo n qq almost made me died. they were drunk n din wanna go home. 1 was crying, 1 was damn high n screaming. its hell for me. haha. i had to entertain 2 drunkards when i was a lil high by then. nick, watermelon, angeline n kenneth wong was there as well, seeing their 'show'. hahaha.

managed to send them back at last n headed to bq. n this time it was my turn to be drunk. haha. well, i was jus damn high. but din puke, luckily. haha. n home sweet home. =)

pics.......

momo n me, before going down to the party

qq n me

smiles...

strangled. haha.

angeline, qq , me.

blurry....

momo said she dun rem taking these pics. lol.

=)

jasmine n me

n she said we look alike. lol.

stayed in sch till quite late to finish stats assignment wit shaunie, qq, mark n warren. then went to junction 8 for dinner wit mark n warren. we came to this topic that if next time ur child is gay wat would u do. wahaha. n warren's reply to that was fantastic. he said he will lock his son up in the house n hire lotsa girls to rape him. WTF. like that will make his son straight right away. LOL.

then off to work again. work was usual, except today there's 2 guys that asked for my number. n i gave them the pub's number. haha. aft that, home sweet home.

lec, then beauty world to pool again. haha. played till 8 plus i felt ill. had fever for the night, 37.5. =( haha. but something made my fever subsided in the middle of the night. =)))

went to sch as usual. then to celebrate kid's bday at kbox cineleisure wit mark, shaun, warren, sheila, michael, n a few of kid's frens.

pics.....

me & sheila

me & mark

bday boy n me

1 eye missing. haha.

yuhui, warren, mark in da smoking room.

warren, yuhui, sheila, kid, mark, michael, shaun.

n the 23-year-old bday kid.

work aft kbox, n the tips was good man. cos its 1 of the shareholder's bday too on that day. tips was 27 bucks. =)

tears jus fall out, i dunno y. u made ur way to my heart jus so easily. though this is so not possible, im falling deeper into u, without u knowing. ur a part of my life so recently, but sometimes i feel u so far apart. u dun belong to me so pls go away, go away from my heart. dun give me any hopes now or i wun be able to get thru this. seeing u n her is murdering me.

boring day. woke up late so i missed sch. lazing ard at hm n came across this site abt horoscope. read alot abt my sign. some were quite true, for ppl who noe me, maybe u will realise it too. ok this post is gonna be real LENGHTY.... here it goes:

Leo's Money Profile

Leos love to be center stage, playing to an adoring audience. They also love beauty and riches and often seem to be pampered with both. When not on stage, it's easy to spot the Lion in a crowd. They're always the most magnetic presence in the room, surrounded in an almost golden glow. Leos are usually on a mission to find their right place in the (business) world. If they're chosen to lead -- well, some things just make perfect sense! Leos enjoy taking a risk, but generally only if the odds are in their favor. They hate to lose (and look bad!). It's not surprising for Las Vegas to beckon to the Lion who loves glamour and glitz along with some shiny new coins. The Lion's gambling streak can be a good thing, as long as ego doesn't get in the way and lead to bad business decisions.

Lions firmly believe that money is there to give them everything they deserve, whether it be a great house, a zippy sports car, or more toys than they can play with. Extravagance is their middle name! They'll find a way to make money, because they surely know how to spend it -- and will. 'There's more where that came from' is never far from the Lion's mind.
Managing money would definitely crimp the Lion's freewheeling style -- hey, these are the folks who originated the champagne and caviar party! The accountant (or partner) can add up the damage. If Leos do overspend, they're generally resourceful enough to get back on track. When things get really bad, a visit will be paid to the banker since the proud Lion could never borrow from a friend. And admit they're not king of the hill? Never!

The Lion's secret to success, however, may be a very generous spirit. These folks would lend their last penny, and since what goes around comes around, they'll always find their way to a few more. Leo knows the cup is half full, and more often than not, their cup runneth over!




Leo's Karmic Life Lessons

The Lion is quite the fitting Symbol for Leo: Like the King of the Jungle, it is a proud, golden, regal energy. When Leo receives the attention and admiration it seeks, it is energetic, optimistic, romantic, demonstrative and a lot of fun. Leos make wonderful actors, as they crave the spotlight and do great things when they're in it. The trouble for a Leo comes when the spotlight is challenged or taken away or when the audience isn't as appreciative as Leo wishes it were. When that happens, Leo's sensitive side may come to the fore, leading to dejection and unhappiness.

As it is ruled by the Sun, the central, most life-giving force of our Universe, Leo sometimes believes it is the center of everything as well. Others may see this as a case of egotism and when paired with Leo's stubborn pride, it could add up to a big pain in the neck! Behind egotism, however, often lies insecurity. Leo must consider why it needs to claim the center of attention -- and the answer may come as a surprise. Is it that Leo feels inwardly insecure and relies on outward attention to feel worthy and valid? Most of us share this insecurity; all of us simply have to recognize it. The more internal balance we can develop, the less any of us needs external support. As Karmic Astrology teaches us, all we have is ourselves, and our Selves are plenty. Leo doesn't need to be awe-inspiring to deserve love and appreciation; being a living, functioning being of the world is plenty. As a modification of the well-known saying, Leo would do well to adopt the motto, 'I exist, therefore I am loved.'

Leo's urge to be appreciated can lead to being boastful or arrogant, but this can cause problems when human fallibility kicks in. One of Leo's most admirable qualities is its dignity, but that can be overridden by emotional over-sensitivity if Leo feels someone has 'cut it down to size.' There's no need to get overly upset when that happens; instead, try to remember that everyone is equal and all people make mistakes from time to time. It's acceptable; it's human. When we're all on the same level, we're close and connected -- and connection is one of the most worthy pursuits of human experience.



Leo in Romance

Affairs of the heart will quickly take on a 'me first' quality with the Lion, since they truly believe they are the best and must come first. Leos love to feel good, as befits royalty, so they will respond exceptionally well to pampering and flourishes. While Leos loves to be admired and adored, they can also take the lead in romance, since they believe their strength and power will win the day. When the Lion gets going, watch out! Passionate fireworks will fly, since these folks know how to turn on the charm, and the heat. Since all the world's a stage to the prancing, dancing Lion, fun, excitement and a little razzle-dazzle are all part of their repertoire. Leos are willing to gamble where romance and love are concerned, since losing is not in their vocabulary.




Leo in Relationships

A relationship with the daring, yet devoted, Lion will rarely prove dull. This showy cat may need to be lavished with attention, but can also ravish a lover with riches in return. A slow, smoldering pas de deux, which leads to mutual bliss, is what the Lion would love from a partner. The fiery Lion requires a lover who can keep up with them and certainly one who can match wits. If not, the risk of boredom and flight is a big one, since Leo has very high expectations. A partner who can understand and indulge the Lion's need to be the center of attention will be a keeper for this regal cat. The ideal Leo soul mate understands the pleasure principle and will work hard to keep their mate satisfied.




Leo in Love

The strength and amorous prowess which Leos possess makes them a natural leader in the dance of love. This cat may want to rule, but it also wants to be admired, which makes for a love filled with sexual tension. Even so, the Lion's generous and giving nature makes certain that a lover will feel special. They may test a lover from time to time in their quest for answers about love: what is it really? How can I feel it the most? The one with the best answers to these questions will surely make this cat purr. Love is a most attractive state for Leos, since the pleasure, attraction and fun of the game are all qualities which make the Lion glow.




Leo's Friendship Profile

The Lion can never be accused of hiding behind their mane. They're happiest when people surround them, especially as they're likely to be the center of attention in any crowd. Leo has a ton of friends. After all, anyone who thinks so highly of themself must have something good to offer! The Lion makes a great friend, though. They can be playful as a kitten and are always ready to spread their sunshine around. Beware of their competitive side, though. As your friend, Leo wants to be proud of you and will do everything in their power to ensure your success -- so long as you don't outshine them. As long as you're the underdog, you'll have a loyal friend.

Everyone can be friends with a Leo. They don't really discriminate, preferring to have a big mix of people to play with. Leo always wants the best and might take you out for fancy dinners and such. Don't worry if you can't quite afford it -- the generous Lion is quite willing to chip in. Make sure you remind them again and again how grateful you are for their help, though. A friend who is not appreciative enough of the Leo's charms and generosity may not get the chance to show it later.

Best Friend Bets: Gemini, Libra

i dunno y my feelings are getting much more intensed, though i dun show it. i dunno how to handle it now. sometimes i wish i could jus drop everything in every corner of my mind so i wun feel this way. i dunno y u jus seem to pop out from the back of my mind from time to time, more than u know it. or maybe u dun even know a thing. but im afraid u'll sense it too, cos everything would change to be never like before.

when i get to c u, the feeling is jus so unique n always sweet. when i dun, i start to miss u, thinking whether i shld contact u. when i hear abt u, i always feign ignorance trying to show no interest, but deep down, im dying to hear more abt u. when ppl relate u to another girl, the sourness emerge like its never gonna end.

i seriously dunno when this foolishness begins, or when it'll stop. im jus gonna pray hard this is not gonna affect or hurt me anymore.

daniel tan's lec today, went in after break n mark told me he close the attendance alr lor. kanbu. then qq told me weilian's frens are joining us to the movies too. omg. i was like thinking how will they look like lor. wahahahahaha. n that cb long mia-ed to bloody sleepworld yet again.



went to cine aft lec. qq n i went to ljs to eat b4 the show wit sheila n momo. n the service is SHIT. the scenario was funny n angry at the same time. the staffs there were really kan bu n i called to complain. lol. the person actually said he'll do something, but dunno if he really would. then edmund n his frens came too. had a hard time stopping myself from laughing at them. wahaha.

watched one missed call at cine, the show was just ok. n sheila made a horror show seem like a comedy there. she got frightened at the slightest horror scenes n starts to scream. LOL. she's the funniest person ever to watch movie with. haha. aft the show, momo n sheila went back. so qq, edmund+frens n me went to play pool. his frens were real jokers, though they din do anything in particular that's funny. they jus seem so funny to me. lol. elgin n cy came to join us in the midst of our game. then home aft pool.

went supper wit long downstairs then went over to momo's plc aft that. i dunno y its getting hard for me to slp. something's wrong wit my body clock. must have got it from mark. haha. insomnia. lol. watched like 2 of scv's oldie chinese movies b4 waking up momo. haha. i jus call out for mogui n she woke up. lol. n her zone was damn funny. he shivered like never b4 in momo's room but refused to go out cos there's air-con. joker zone.

dug momo up n convinced the both of them to go eat hay mee wit me again. hehe. =) went back to rush thru our assignments n while doing so i fell aslp. lol. n momo's waking-ppl-up-skill is damn tok gong. can die. confirm wake up.

i dozed off in lec quite a few times. din manage to c him in sch anymore. im gonna put a stop to all these nonsense, which i realise its really nonsense to have a thing for him even. anyway, aft sch went to beauty world again to play pool. lol. seems like a routine nowadays alr. same old ppl except for kid n michael. quite surprisingly they tagged along. n pool session was a disaster today. lost to everyone except mark. wahaha. n the deal i had wit long, omg, i lost. saddening. im sure i'll win soon. lol. meantime, i'll have to bear wit the deal. sobs.

There was nothing to say the day he left
just filled a suitcase full of regrets
I halt a taxi in the rain looking for someplace to ease the pain
Then like an answered prayer I turned around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heartyou really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart
Now I don't understand what I'm going through
there must be a plan that lead me to you
because the hurt just disappears
in every moment that you are near
Just like an answered prayer
you made the loneliness easy to bear
You really know where to start fixing my broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool whose dreams have fallen apart
fixing a broken heart
Surely the wind will stop falling baby
and I'll forget the past cuz here we are at last
you really know where to start fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool whose dreams have fallen apart
Fixing a broken heart
fixing a broken heart

kuku pic we're being fored to take by that cb kwok




random, random, random..........


things are getting obvious. feelings are overwhelming. life nowadays is really like a rollercoaster. sometimes when u c that someone, or when u have interractions with him, u feel as though ur at the peak of the ride. but when that someone suddenly becomes mean or ignores u, u feel as though the ride has plunged right down to the bottom. u feel so helpless u dun even know wat to do. in fact, the cruel truth is, there's nothing u can do. someone pls lead me back to the right track.

cabbed to sch n realised its stats today. feel like i wasted my money. damn kuku. aft lec went to beauty world AGAIN for pool wit shaunie momo n sheila. long came later n he's kanbu today. lol. he actually asked me to plead him so he'll send me to cck. NO WAY! haha. in the end, i still won. forest:0, yuhui:1. wahaha.



work was hell. pouring draft beer into jug was disastrous. lol. i actually made the whole jug full of foam several times. n kim kept laughing at me la. hahaha. but overall it wasn't tough at all. jus not used to it that's all. shared cab wit kim back home n the fare was whopping 19bucks. wtf. luckily i get to claim.

i finally got to go teck whye to eat my beloved prawn mee wit momo n long. =) haha. momo n i were supposed to go for the past 2 times but sadly, i cant wake up. but today i finally did! haha. if not momo will definitely f me cos i made her wake up earlier for 2 times like for nothing. haha. sorry "xiao meiiiii". wahaha.

sch as usual, listening to daniel tan's craps. beauty world again to play pool wit mark n momo. wanted to ask shaunie, my pool khaki along but he was alr on the way home n sounded emo. haha. n that long mia-ed to his bloody sleepworld. anyways, while i was playing wit momo, this fat old guy came to approach her. i almost lmao. the guy actually asked her if she reached 16. like wtf. hahaha. momo was damn agitated. lol. then another guy, the pool centre staff came n shouted like across a few pool tables to ask again. i bth then help momo ask him whether he wanna check ic anot lor. n u know wat? he jus shut up n walk off. mad rite. damn kp la. ass. we pay for the game n he still kpkb distract us. haha. we left aft a few games cos momo wanna go cut hair.

mark n i waited for momo to take bus 1st before we board our bus. we scared she kena kidnap by bangalas. lol. aft she left, we freaking hell waited for almost half hour b4 the bus finally came. nowadays buses are damn kuku. sighs. haha.

saturday, ruined as usual bcos of lessons. woke up freaking late n reached sch after break time. haha. asked mark to wait for me cos i dare not walk in alone wit my fucking bag. so, mark carried my bag for me into lecture. wahaha. momo they all were sitting so far away so i sat wit mark for the remaining 1 hour? almost died from all his craps. he kept bombarding me wit "qian bian wen da ti". like wtf lor. haha. aft lecture, saw adidas. he waved n say hi, amazingly. wahaha. n i realised some ppl's mouth reali stinks, like u din even do anything to provoke them, their sacarsms n criticisms are f.o.c. it reali gets me fuming. but, i guess the only way is dun bother. thats the best way to shut them up.

went to beauty world wit qq, mark n warren to eat. this warren reali amazed me. he practically ate like 3 meals at a go. hahaha. so we teased him n said we're not gonna invite him over during cny if not all our food will be gobbled up by him! haha. we went to play pool aft the meal. warren n qq are jokers. warren kept asking qq to slice the ball, then qq always replied,"slice ur cb!" lol!!

home aft all these, then went out again to movies again. bump into san downstairs n he asked me some lame shit qns. anyways, caught body #19. freaking nice show. directors of shutter indeed. thats all for the day.

.someone's entering my life silently while that someone finally disappears.

it's a long long journey till i know where i'm supposed to be
it's a long long journey and i don't know if i can believe
when shadows fall and block my eyes
i am lost and know that i must hide
it's a long long journey till i find my way home to you
many days i've spentdrifting on through empty shores wondering what's my purpose wondering how to make me strong
i know i will falter i know i will cry i know you'll be standing by my side
it's a long long journey and i need to be close to you
sometimes it feels no one understands
i don't even know why i do the things i do when pride builds me up till i can't see my soul will you break down these walls and pull me through
cause it's a long long journey till i feel that i am worth the price you paid for me on calvary beneath those stormy skies
when satan mocks and friends turn to foes
it feel like everything is out to make me lose control
cause it's a long long journey till i find my way home to you, to you

Resolutions for the new year

Alright, this sounds a bit cranky. But, im still gonna do this.

Resolutions:

1. Less clubbing n pubbing
2. Good grades
3. Be a better daughter
4. Cut down smoking
5. Save up
6. Be a better person
7. Less tantrums

Wishlist:

1. Driving license
2. A sweet n loving bf?
3. UOB lady's card

I seriously hope this year would be better for me. I don't ever want any relations to bother or cause me any more burdens. For me, i seldom reflect on the things I've done. So this time, many reflections need to be done. I'm truly jaded after so many things that had happened throughout n now I'm numbed.

Many things let me see a different pespective in life, even though many a times i don't portrait this image. I learnt not everything will come ur way, no matter how much u would want it to be. It may sound very helpless, but that's how life is. Cruel. So this year, I'm gonna live my life happy. Come what may, nothing can pull me down or affect me anymore!

summary of 2007

2007 was all well till many fights came between me n my ex. I shall elaborate more about me n him. We got to know each other a few years back through a fren. We can speak to one another about anything, just anything. Actually i was kinda amazed that we ended up together after being frens for like 3years?

He wasn't like other guys who does all the sweettalking to please u and all. In fact, when we just got together, in May 06, he wasn't really very sweet. It was after a few months that he started treating me really nice. That's what made me fell for him even more. He never fails to fetch me home from work, and brings me to places i never thought of going to. It was really fun being with him. I could still rem i wld always go over to his place to stay overnight whenever his off days were. He always ask me if im hungry and all. lol. N his family treats me like im part of them. =)

But frequent quarrels made us drift apart. He doesn't to solve the problems we had after quarrels n wld act as though nothing happened. Thats the thing i dun like abt him, n for the fact that he's FREAKING possessive. No other guys could enter my life, even as fren. He wun be happy abt it. At first, i thought i would be able to bear wit all these for i really loved him for who he is n all that crap. But, i came to realise all was too much for me to bear.

So subsequently, we quarrelled even more. We broke off n patched for like a few times before i really got sick of it n ended things once n for all. Rather brief elaboration for a 1yr 7mths r/s.

Anyways, r/s aside, i made new frens in SIM too. They all truly the most craziest ppl i've met. haha. But, made a couple of good frens though, despite the fact that they can be berserk at times. lol. i think they'll kill me when they see this. Haha, alot of crazy happenings throughout my life in SIM. But, they are still around for me whenever i need em, esp that sai lang mo. Omg she's gonna kill me. Wahaha. Met alot of new ppl this year, good n bad. I shall skip the details here.

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